I'm a little spanned out....emotion-wise. I have these little minute frustrations....I'm happy and worried and slightly upset. I'm just needing to blab about it all.
Had to wipe the touch laptop clean thanks to some problems. No biggie, used to do it all the time on the little laptop(loved that thing), BUT with this it's a little bit different thanks to the hard drive full of photos, school and writing crap.....also not that big of a deal, we just took the drive out and copied everything onto Daniel's computer and all is good.....well for some reason when we had all the crazy fix-it done with this computer, I'm happy and a little giddy because it's like starting all over with a new computer. BUT ANYWAY....I found that for some strange reason everything from day 14 of February that I saved on the computer is umm gone. It's magical, I know....well not tooooo big of a deal, right?? I was able to get some of the important photos from Flickr....thank goodness for Flickr....but some of my school and saved writings and such....not sure how that will work. All is okay, though, I have my photos =>
I probably would have freaked out a little more than this if I hadn't had Flickr and if I hadn't been practicing the new techniques I've learned in my stress class....guess they're working. Or I'm holding it all in and I'll just have one giant freak attack. Who really knows, I won't until later, I suppose.
I had to write this somewhere, I just HAD to. I was feeling like I wanted to umm let it out?? Just without speaking, I wasn't in the mood to physically speak about it. Weird, I know. Plus, typing is kind of a stress reliever for me. Another weird thing, I know.
Aside from that, I have a lot of Biology to get done tomorrow, well technically today. Pretty Important to actually do it before late afternoon hits. Mom will be here for some scrapbooking. I'm excited for that. => I miss Mom. She works so much, but when I lived there I got to see her more, obviously, but you know. So any chance I get with her is just awesome => I'm sure she can use this, too....she works a lot.
You know when you have a best friend?? A really good friend you can count on for anything, you can tell anything without explanation, you can just drop by, pick up the phone, you think about them when cool things happen and think about how you're going to tell them about it?? Well, I have plenty of acquaintances, some actual friends and then maybe one I call a "best friend" though they don't actually fit that description, they are as close as it gets. There is one person in my life that actually fits that description. You would think, well "duh", but actually this person doesn't have to be this type of person for me, there are a lot out there that are just the label in the smallest way, but they don't go the extra mile to be your friend. Of course, I'm talking about my mom. Mom's don't have to be your friend, they just have to be your Mom. To a lot of people that doesn't include being your friend at all.....my mom is my best friend, though. When people I call "friends" let me down, or when I believe someone to be my best friend and it's not mutual, in the end I know who to go to when I need to yack about it or ask questions. I'm sure my mom would like me to get a best friend so she doesn't get 50 phone calls and get bothered with some of the little things, poor girl works so hard then has me in the background yacking up a storm.....hehe. Every time I have myself believe I got me a good ol' best friend that I can count on for anything, something happens and Mom gets to hear all about it.
Then you have that person that's there through the entire thing, watching me go through friends and yack at my mom. The person I'm with doing fun stuff that I want to tell my friends about. That's a person that's much more than a friend, though the best friend I could have next to my mom....Of course, I'm talking about Daniel.....hehe => NOW there's a person I could write a flippin' series of books about!! So, I'll just end it there.... for your sake.
Well enough.....I have to start working on this to-do list.....will I actually get anything done?? Who really knows....I DID do all of my stress class tonight, got 100% too!! hehe....well enough patting on the back, I need to get some more done. Biology needs some more attention than its been getting.
I'm just in this mood where I want to write like a novel....why can't I be in this mood when I have an English class....??
"When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
~Henri Nouwen
Such Great Heights ~ The Postal Service
