03/18/2010

SO!!
I like my job. =>
I don't like how I feel at my job.....I feel like I'm in a shell. I've always just been me and said screw everyone else if they don't like it. Here I was me just once and they all wondered if "I was okay", "If I had bottled up things I needed to let out" or my favorite "Do I have a psychological disorder".....yea, so umm....WHAT THE HELL??
All of you who know me, get that it's well just how I am.....I'm a little weird, but I'm "normal" there's nothing wrong with me and here I feel like I need to keep in my little egg, say few words to people and barely look at anyone. Then get off work, get in my car, turn up the music and scream to let it all out and kind of catch up for the missed "being myself" time.....I feel so LAME, I've never had to "hide myself"
This little thing is a BIG deal to me.....I HATE having to feel like being me is, well, what? wrong?? ehh....that's it. I'm going to just let it out the rest of the week and if they think I'm crazy, have some kind of disorder and ignore me like the kid in the back who picks his nose.....then SO BE IT!! at least I'LL FEEL BETTER because I'll BE ME!!
Let's just hope the guys on top don't see this as a possible questionable personality and want to speak with me "in their office"......
pssh....

Always when judging
Who people are,
Remember to footnote
The words "So far."
~Robert Brault

Random School Assignment Post

hehe.....yea pretty lame, I know. The chapter we were studying was on nutrition. Great stuff, going to read it over with Daniel because we need to wise up on our facts. =>
Anyway, we had a discussion post where we had to choose a vegetarian diet or one of the special popular groups described in our text. Talk about them and give suggested eating patterns to help achieve a healthy diet.
Boring stuff to most of you, but I chose college students as mine and it's a small little discussion. I just thought I should share the information that most people know, but still somehow forget. Here goes my post for school:

COLLEGE STUDENTS!!

I'm a big "eating on the run" kind of person. I've noticed that I"M NOT THE ONLY ONE running to the snack vending machines to suffice the growls in my stomach.
Here's a better solution (and cheaper in the long run!):
Take an apple, cheese sticks, pretzels and water or fruit juice with you to school/work.
Also, try real hard to actually EAT YOUR FOOD, this means put the books down and um....breathe, don't inhale your food, eat slowly, enjoy it. I know I'm not the only one there either!!
Something I found very useful was to EAT BREAKFAST!! I know you hear it a lot, but seriously. It's healthy and you'll be less likely to run to the vending machines later.
Another one to keep in mind is to drink lots of water and juices. Drinking soda all the time isn't going to help.
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So yes, boring post, but I found the info useful to give to others. There's a whole page on college students and achieving a healthy diet in my text.

"Vegetables are a must on a diet.  I suggest carrot cake, zucchini bread, and pumpkin pie."

  ~Jim Davis

03/10/2010

The past few days have me doing a whole lot of thinking. I usually think a lot, but this is probably 10X as much and I tend to just freeze up. I'm usually not good at making decisions....true. BUT I usually do have some sense of control. Lately, nothing is as usual. So, for some reason, I tried my hand at a sonnet.....I LOVED them back in 9th grade, I actually wrote quite the emotional one....I was just thinking about it. This is one I just put together a few minutes ago and it's nowhere near as profound as the one I wrote in 9th grade....I'll share that one next.

It Leaves Me

lots of new things coming into my life
no worries old things are leaving my sight
the leaving leaves me with wound from a knife
though reasons behind the leaving are right
happening so fast gives me no control
a feeling quite new it leaves me in thought
this thinking so much puts me in a hole
all its accomplished is made me distraught
clueless as how to proceed I just sit
emotions build and make me a stranger
no decisions made I'm stuck in this pit
all this has my state of mind in danger
I must get me and my mind back in sync
never thought I'd say that I need a shrink

Well.....that's the bubble of things.....

"Work out your own salvation.  Do not depend on others." 

~Buddha

03/10/2010

There's a whole lot of FANTASTIC that happened the last few days. I'd like to share that, but right now, I'M MAD!!
I'm mad at a few people, I'm mad at schools, I'm mad at just so many things.....mad at myself. Just MAD. So THERE. I better find a way to cheer up in the next hour before work.

"Eggs cannot be unscrambled." 

~American Proverb

DooD in Thought....

When it's windy and rainy outside it makes me want to turn off all the lights, everything that makes noise, lay down next to Daniel and just say nothing....

"Love one another and you will be happy.  It's as simple and as difficult as that."  ~Michael Leunig

Slide - The Goo Goo Dolls